Bi polar

She is loud when quiet

Sure when in doubts

She is a viper

She ain’t sleeping ,just hibernating

Poke her not,no one knows her feeding time

She swims while drowning

Stands while sitting

She rises while falling

Then wins by loosing

She is strong when weak

But vicious when calm

In chaos,she finds her inner peace

She is wright when wrong

Don’t be swayed,

She finds light in darkness

She is funny when serious

Yet she forgives when she forgets

She takes by giving

So sweet when bitter

She overspends when bankrupt

She is charisma

Leading while following

She is my girl

She is me

She is shynamacs

Dis moi

Dis moi vous me besoin

Dis moi vous m’aimez

Dis moi vous pardonnez la derniére

Dis moi je suis votre rêve

Dis moi je suis uniquement pour vous

Dis moi vous avez changé

Dis moi vous jamais parti

Dis moi vous allez reste avec moi toujours

Dis moi s’il vous plaît

Parce que ma cœur est brisé

Dis moi ma chérie

Pourqoui vous me fait ça

Pourquoi vous me laissez

Dis moi maintenant

Car sans vous

Le monde n’exist pas pour moi

Sans vous je ne vois pas

Sans vous je ne réflechi pas

Sans vous je suis perdu

Sans vous les jours sont noir

Sans vous les nuits sont blanc

Dis moi ma petit

Pourquoi pas moi

Je suffre beaucoup

Dis moi mon avion pourquoi pas moi.

A night without darkness

Lying in bed

eavesdropping to the whispering of trees outside

I hear you calling out for me

I hear the sound of your heartbeat as you plunge into the thin air

I hear the jubilation in your voice as you seductively slide away

I hear you hurrying away to yonder lands

I hear you

I hear you yearning to get home

I hear you as you break the broken pieces of my heart

I hear you as you rejoice in my despair

I hear you mock the desperation in my prayers

I hear you as you push me away

I hear you telling me to move on

I hear you telling my aching heart to quieten the voices in its head

I hear you loud

I hear you happy without me

I hear you but I don’t listen

I hear you love

But you are stuck with me forever

Second choice

It hurts that I knew you first,

yet I was your second choice

Had known for a while you needed space

just didn’t know it was to be between us

You talked of moving on

moving away to move on

Should have read between the lines

Should have seen the lies beneath your truths

should have seen the writing on the wall

when the walls went up

but you didn’t bother climbing over it

I tumbled over it

needing you to need me too

You wanted out

when I needed you close

Look at me now,

a shadow of my former self

your absence hurt me for far too long

But your time is up

with this last page

we write off our last chapter

Sheer lies

Got a pen in hand with nothing in mind

I mean

How can I pen something so indescribable?

Something only fathomed in fantasy

Coz life has a way of beckoning us on

feeding us with hopes and dreams for tomorrow

Then choking us with the realities of today

They told me the truth prevails

It is all sheer lies

It is a make believe system

It is justice for the rich system

then prison for the poor

It is a corrosive religion

Where immorality is practised by them pastors

Where greed and dark powers are no longer frowned upon

Where miracles are sold to the highest bidder

Where ministry is a business venture

They told me education is the key

The key to all life challenges

I look around and wonder

Who mixed up our keys?

It is a man eat man jungle

a survival for the fitest society

Where the prey feeds on the predator

It is the law of nature

Wake up and smell coffee while it is still hot

Look what you made me do

I dared to walk back our memory lane

A memory lane filled with thickets and broken dreams

Dreams we once had engraved in our hearts

Of a heart filled with happiness and love

Love found in the past yet dimming my present

A present yearning to forget to remember

I remember the forgotten moments

Then I remember to forget your betrayal

It is hard though

to forgive and forget

to forget the one thing that gave me happiness and bitterness

to forgive the one person who played my every string

the one person who played me for a fool

the one person I can’t stay mad at when all within me screams for revenge

A revenge am unable to serve

With this,

I finally let you in to let go of you

She lost

She lost herself when she found you

She lost herself when you embraced her

She lost herself in your dreamy gaze

She lost herself underneath your numerous lies

She lost herself in the possibility of a future together

She lost herself in this unrelented love

She lost her future dreams to accomodate yours

She lost her friends to make you her best friend

She lost out on missed trips

She lost out on life so you could find her

She lost you and her world dimmed

She lost you and became sour

She lost her happiness,

buried underneath bitterness

She lost out

But she learned

Together apart

Ma chérie

We need to talk

It is not me it is you kinda thing

I’ll be quick about it though

Coz you’ve never had any hots for me to begin with .

I always knew you had left,

just wasn’t ready to let you go

Just didn’t know how to fill the void

Now

I just wish this could break me

But you can’t break a broken heart

A heart never healing as I kept offering it to the hands that once crushed it

With the last drop of my tears

I step into a hot a shower

Burning memories of yesterday out of my skin

Like the sun and the moon

Some togethers exist in being apart

You still the moon to my sky

And from a distance i’ll love you

I hate to love you

Coz all you did is love to hate me

Spread your wings and fly away

Kills me to watch you go